I felt lonely. I went online again to chat up people. One of them told me to go clubbing with my gay friends so that i can find more gay friends. Problem is, i dont have any gay friends, let alone bring me to a club.

L talked to me again the other day. My heart raced like it never did. I know deep down in my heart that nothing will ever come out between us. I need him only as a friend. He is a good friend.

On the night when we played blind mice, I collided with cute A. We held each other's hands ( i have no idea why). It went on for quite awhile before we let go. It felt weird, but nice. I would sometimes think that he's gay but no, i dont think he is. we're just friends.

I think i have obsessions with hot people (who isnt?). I view their profiles nearly every day. It's been a long time since i had sex.